Reflections

I have been bad at updating this month. Thanksgiving went by in a flash and now it's December. I usually don't share personal things on my blog but here it goes.

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The past week and a half or so, something has changed inside of me. I've had some time to really reflect on my life because of a blog I ran into...www.nieniedialogues.com. Stephanie was featured on KSL and that is how I found it. If you haven't read it, I would suggest you read from August 2008-present, which is what I've been doing. Her blog is beautiful and not only am I stalking her personal life on her blog (sorry Stephanie) but her life is a beautiful story of faith & hardship. She has an incredible testimony of the gospel and is an example to all. She also inspires me. She has the cutest taste in vintage things! Which I love, but can't ever seem to get my hands on because my wallet is constantly glued shut if you know what I mean. (It's my fault though)

A little background on Stephanie; 3 years ago, her and her husband were in a small plane crash. Both were injured and her husband Christian who she calls Mr. Nielson in her blog, broke his back & Stephanie was burned on 80% of her body but they both survived. They have 4 little kids and live in Provo, UT. She has been through so much, I just can't even comprehend. She will have a wonderful reunion with Christ after this life because of her incredible faith & testimony and she will be healed. I know it because of the gospel.

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The other night I was in our basement with the usual "Spencer on the couch doing homework" and he caught me staring off into the distance. "What are you thinking about?" he asked. Tears started to well up in my eyes and I said "Nothing." The truth was, that I was thinking about my life. I have found myself sorry for challenges I have been through & feeling a "poor me" attitude the past little while. After I read about Stephanie I was certainly reminded of how blessed I am.

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Right now is the time to be grateful to be alive and to cherish every little thing in life. I am trying to not let stupid things bother me; like Spencer leaving his plate of chicken bones in the basement for days because he devoured every piece of meat that was on that thing, or Sophie eating her dinner and putting her messy lips on our bed because she wants to see us. I am trying to be grateful for life and remember that we have a purpose on earth. I desire to live a fulfilling life. I want to be a wife who kisses her husband when he gets home from work everyday because we love each other. Someday I want to be a Mother & remember that when I am a Mother, the dishes can wait because my children will remember me playing with them instead. I want to have a strong testimony of the gospel to teach my children and be an example to others. Those things in life must not be missed. How do I know that? Because Stephanie almost lost everything dear to her, but God preserved her life for a reason and almost that very same reason is why we are here too.